One big Commercial???

Ok so i was just checking in on some of the people that I am subbed to (which isn't many) so that I wouldnt feel completely out the loop. To my surprise I saw that GoldenChild was back and looking fierce I might add.....(kudos hun hair on point and face beat). Ok ok ok anyway I sat there and watched the entire video cause I was too entertained by it all. Now you know that a person is entertaining when you can sit there and watch them just look back at you for 10minutes. But in those ten minutes she made some points that I had been saying to people out of the YT world. This whole youtube thing is not what it used to be.

I remember when I first started it was all about gaining info and everyone learning and building one another up. I may there was clicks of course but from where I stood it was harmless. Now on the other hand I know when there are hurds of females drama will follow (sorry it just is what it is). So I felt like as long as I don't associate myself with it then BAM I'm good. And I am proud to say I feel like I have stayed true to just that. But it really disturbs me that the catty, backlashing and blacklisting that goes on behind the scenes...I mean you can cut the tention with a knife. I didn't know or even attempt to get involved with most of that stuff so...to all involved have fun.

But back to the point at hand it seems like every channel is a COMMERCIAL. Everyone is selling something for someone. Its not to say there is anything wrong with that...as I am an affiliate myself but on some channels that is all you will see. It makes you wonder what can I truely believe if everything is "GOOD" and a "MUST BUY".

And its like an unspoken word that noone really takes in detail about their affiliation. If it wasn't for legal reasons alot of them probably wanted even post it. So here it is I am going to again speak on mine...

I was contacted to do reviews for the company you all know me for mentioning. But even though people think that "oh she an affiliate dont trust her she work for them"....its really not all that serious. First thing is first "I" chose what I want to review. So in other words if I dont see the potential in something I will NOT request to review it. SIMPLE AS THAT! My word means alot to me and so does integrity. Whether I say its bad or good my affiliation is not affected. I dont work for the BRAND i am merely assisting the Seller with showcasing the product. So that is why you see folk say I am not AFFILIATED or ASSOCIATED with _________ brand but they can still be affiliated with a seller of that product.

I like doing reviews because I enjoy informing people about things I enjoy and have knowledge of to pass on the info. I think I am made to do that type of thing. There are some great women doing things on YT for the right reasons and some that do it for the hits and the money. I have even unsubbed to some because I just couldnt take the repetitive reviews with no creativity or the make up tuts that were not appealing. There are alot of unheard women that really have it but get no shine. And I try to show love to them because I too was new to the scene and reached out for love. But people have not stayed true to what they preach.

The cliques that formed are brutal. I've even made a video (great one I might add) and seen a YTer that is more well known do he exact thing not long after...and no this wasnt a coincidence. Too good to be a subby but good enough to run with an idea and attempt to outshine. But at the end of the day I love my YT bellas and fellas. I dont need a cheering squad...just one ear enough for me. I wish WE as black women could learn to unit better and not get caught up in the hype.


XOXO,
HB

Graduate I am

Soooo if you haven't heard yet....I graduated July 29, 2010 as a Medical Assistant. Words can not express how happy and relieved I am to be able to move forward in life to better things. I have been overly focused the last few yrs of my life on school and bettering myself. On the 29th
of July I achieved greatness. People graduate all he time but what people don't know is that this was more then just a piece of paper...it showed that I can do whatever it is I put my mind too. Unlike alot of other accomplished I share...this one I did all buy myself..so it means so much to me. This last year was the most humbling yr of my life. If you can name it I went through it this year. Mary Mary says in their song that "i cried my last tear yesterday", but I know I haven't. But the good thing is when I do cry that next tear I know that I'll soon be smiling again cause just like the rain brings rainbows I will get through whatever comes my way.

Its so easy to think that you know what someone is going through or to look at their life and judge them for the things they say or do but who are you to decide what is right or wrong? I am not perfect but at the sametime I will not let another tear me down.

Some people can preach about what they wanna do and how they are gonna do it, me I decided to just do it. I sat back and lived for others but I am now living for me. There is no need to regret lifes trials and tribulations when that is what turned you into the person that you are. I have had my share of friends that weren't for me but they have to live with the fact that they losed out on a real friendship but me I will be just fine because my heart is full. Everything I do from here on is because I wanted to do so.....I am in control of my destiny....Im writing this chapter of my life.

I will do whatever makes me smile and try to stay away from things that will only make me cry. To those that were there for me through it all I thank you. To those that made time for me when it was good for them I thank you as well, For those that attempted to break me down and hurt I thank you too and God bless your soul.


XOXO,
HB

Lost can you find me?

Ok so I totally couldn't remember the name of this site....like no don't laugh at me. Like really i was like i need to keep up with this whole blog thing but couldn't remember where I had signed up at. Sooooo after looking on youtube pages it finally hit me and POW here I am. I have come to realize that I may have too much going on. I swear I love staying busy because it allows me to keep my life fulfilled but when you lose track of things you might need to reorganize or prioritize what needs to be done. So on that note I am going to try and set a reminder so that I can post more on here.

I love having my youtube channel but I think this blogspot will allow people to really get to know me on another level....more intimate. I would like to include alot of pic and personal life (not too personal...lol) as well. I love you guys sooo much for the support like really.

I won't talk your heads off but let me let you all know that I am currently preparing for graduation on the 29th whoot whoot. Yes I am sooo excited. I have family coming down from back home to see me and friends popping in as well. I will attempt to upload pics so you guys can see me. Let me know what you guys are looking to see and I will try my best to incorporate it into my blog. Some things might end of being random on here but just know it was always be REAL. Love ya'll

XOXO,
Hood Barbie

Not your dolly kinda Barbie

Soooo after a great deal of avoiding, making excuses and trying not to think about it I started a blog. I felt like there was nothing that I could actually share and didnt wanna another outlet to have to keep up with. My schedule is very busy so I use things like Twitter to stay in the mix (quick and simple). I have even cancelled the Facebook account and have slowed down on the YT, but I must say I really want to be able to use all these outlets to my benefit. A friend of mine named "deadly" (dont get scared he is a sweetheart) suggested I use this so I said aww what the hell why not! So I will attempt to keep up with page with updates on my life as well as whatever you all want to see. It will take a minute for me to get used to posting and all that good stuff so bare with me. So I guess all I can end with is thanks for reading this and taking the first step into my world.

XOXO,
Hood Barbie